Flesh Fest

I am SO very frustrated....and sad. I don't even think I can write it all out right now.....I think it might be therapeutic to some degree. God knows my heart in this matter. I am weary...very tired...and saddened by those around me. I always get treated poorly for choosing the right path. Mocked even by my fellow Christians for choosing what only "super Christians" would do. It is not a super christian who honors their marriage vows to love an unlovable (by the worlds standards)spouse. It is a surrendered one who chooses such....I know this truth because I've walked it. Lord have I walked this one out. I've trusted you Lord....and you came through.....I waited on you Lord.....and you came in your time not mine......I cried out to you Lord......and you answered....I grew weary and almost died....yet you sustained me....you've tested my Faith Lord.....and I hope I brought you Glory. I never gave up Lord.....and neither did you!!! Thank you Father!! I know, it doesn't "really" matter what people think...but being under the magnifying glass all the time is a lonely place. I am weary watching my fellow Christians give in to a flesh fest any time things get even the slightest bit rough.... Doing and acting out on their feelings only....blaming everybody else yet never stopping for a single moment to consider their own actions and how they may set events into motion. I know we are human but come on people.....rise up and quit laying down to Satan ....every.... single.... time. He will win if you allow it...He wants to take everything from you...and you're just going to roll on over and not even try to fight the good fight?! God, how frustrating and maddening! Make different choices people..... better choices....right choices..... Godly choices. Times are hard right now....I just want to keep Jesus in the front of my life....Lord help me give honor and glory to you always....your ways ....and your words. Show me where I am wrong so that I may be a better witness for you. Show me where I am right so I may continue to press in towards the mark and light the way for others. Shield me from the hurt and wrath that comes to my door for your sake. Let me not get bitter or faint during my race. Help me to see when the times are right to speak and better yet.....please show me the times that I need not say anything and please physically hold me back from saying anything other than what you would have me to speak. Thank you and amen.