My heart and a pair of brass ones....

I am weary of all the negative people in my life.....I am weary of being the dumping post for far too many troubles.....I am weary of all the taking with no giving in return......I am weary of only being called upon when something is needed. These relationships are too draining in my life at this time.....and I am feeling the call to lay some of them down. Ugh.....it is HARD though....tough choices lay ahead. It involves my heart and people I love very much....I need courage and strength to get through this....some brass knuckles to protect myself and some brass balls (LOL~sorry) to move forward! I have asked the Lord to take out the pruning shears and begin His work.....show me which relationships He wants me in and cut away all the rest. Help heal me Lord from those you ask me to give up that I don't want to or know how to.....I know there are a few....I already probably know what ones.....but show me ALL....all that is NOT glorifying to you and not bringing the best out in me for you. The ones with great sorrow, Lord, could you PLEASE bring others into their lives to help ease their pain....we are to carry each others burdens I know.....but I am all heaped up right now. Please release me from being the ventilator....the mediator....the peacemaker. I NEED your joy back Lord and I need your rest right now. Lord I have prayed continually for good Godly uplifting people to be placed in my life. I feel so all alone right now and wish for true fellowship. I always feel so very alone....yet am always surrounded by many people. I don't understand this at times....and at times it can be frightening. Lord I need a physical manifestation of your loving kindness brought forth back into my life. Give me the strength to carry on where you need me and the courage to let go where you are asking me to. Give me the wisdom and knowledge to see what you'd have me do....show me the path to follow, please. Thank you Father for listening to me and for all you do for me and my family, Amen.